Spent Blooms

As I was picking off the spent blooms from my flowers, I thought about how it represents God's work in me. In order to continue to get more beautiful blooms, the old dead ones need to be removed. When God picks the old blooms off, it might be a little painful, but, in its place a new beautiful bloom comes. Hmm. Never though my petunias would teach me such a profound lesson.

Here I Am

This is me. Just as I am, flaws and all. I am ready to just be me. No pretenses, masks or cover-ups. God has created me in His image, how can that be wrong? This is my struggle: to trust God explicitly, to accept the things I don't understand and move freely in the life He has given me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

I am afraid to let go.... control is not my friend... this is what I must keep reminding myself of.

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

What makes you smile?

What makes you smile? Here are some things that make me smile:
*A baby smile
*A dog with its head hanging out a moving car
*My girls getting along
*A beautiful sunset
*A campfire
*Thinking about my friends
*Knowing I'm saved
*My hubby playing with our kids
*A kiss from my daughter
*My daughter bringing me coffee in bed
*Smelling roses
*Thinking about my Grandma and how much I loved spening time with her
*Hearing babies giggle
The list could go on and on....I have a lot to smile about. I have to keep that it mind when things aren't looking so great. Hmmm, mental note!

Letting Go

Why is it so hard to let go? When something is clearly unhealthy, what holds me back? Is it that there has been so much invested (time, love and emotions) and I hold out hope that it can be fixed instead of letting go? I don't want to be held back and down. I want to move forward. I want to heal and not be afraid. I want to trust that the Lord is having me let go for a good reason. I need to let go. I need to trust. Help me let go, Father! I give this to Him...

Feelings of Accomplishment

I feel invigorated! I feel inspired! I feel....sore! I just won, 5-3, Baseball on the Wii tonight! This is my big accomplishment of the day. What will I do now? Put some Sombra (like ben-gay, but better..) on my arm and go to bed. Maybe when I win the World Series I'll go to Disneyland. Maybe Mickey could rub my arm? I'm still going to bed, regardless!

Its OK!

Yes, it is "OK" to be in transition. This is what I am learning. I have to leave the past behind in order to move forward, or transition, to the next phase of my life. Transition hurts though. Seasons change and when they do, things happen. I feel like I am in the season of "fall" with the changes that are going on in my life. Things are being left behind, falling to the wayside and blowing away. Its "OK!" There is a season for everything under heaven, and somehow, I am changing seasons. This is a good thing, I think. As I transition from a young adult into a mature one, ha ha, things that held so much meaning to me aren't nearly as important. My focus and my energy are narrowing in on what priorities really should be. My God, my husband and my family. Everything, and everyone, else comes after that. I am accomplishing something that maybe no one here on earth will see or appreciate, but my Father in heaven sure does. I want to hear, "Well done, good and faithful servant!" Its "OK!"