"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Cor. 2:9a
This week I went 5 nights without more than a few hours sleep. I don't function well, if at all, without 7-8 hours of sleep at night. I've never been able to, even in my teens and twenties. Yesterday, Mother's Day, was my breaking point. I was so exhausted, so hormonal, so emotionally raw, that I was not a nice person to be around. The tears were near the surface, or streaming down my face, all day long and I was only able to function in a highly reactive state. Small comments or actions pushed me to the edge and my responses were brash and charged with emotion. Yeah, I was a ticking time bomb that should've been in time out.
Last night, thanks to God's grace and a sleep aid, I was able to sleep more and wake up feeling a bit better. Thinking about it, I was in time out...God's time out. A place where I was empty of myself, my ability to control, think or process. I was finding myself continually turning to Him and begging Him for strength, peace, comfort. However, I'm sure my actions and responses didn't exactly reflect my Savior.
This is where His awesome grace comes in. He loves me anyway, no matter how much of an emotional and physical wreck I am. And it is by His grace that my family loves me as a zombie too. :)
I am empty, Lord. I ask you, Father to fill me with Your peace, Your strength, Your love, Your compassion, Your kindness...so that I can overflow onto others. Help me to love You more. Help me to walk out each and every day, no matter how much sleep I've had, in Your grace, continually turning to You. Thank You, Lord God for loving a wretch like me.
